I used to be that way. I've lost my beatmaking ability. Don't get me wrong...I can create whatever kind of music any genre and it be some good stuff, just I find myself pushing to hard to be who I once was. The person eventing styles for people to think about in the future. I ain't bullshittng when I say I've pretty much thought of everything that could be hip hop before you thought it was someones new style. I invented trap music back in 93". I was the baddest dude on this planet in 97'. All you trap beat makers owe me. I'm serious. To be me....you would be on some hard drugs knowing that at your younger ages if their was an internet, or a person that really cared to give you a path to walk, that life would be different for the better. I was a very caution dude. I know how niggas is because I'm a nigga too...so I never let people around me to steal my shit. I've had plenty of ideas stolen due to my partner. Drunk ass......always bumping into people on the bus talking about his guitar skills. Old ass always bringing some ole thug ass nigga around me and my shit just because he a nice guy. Always bringing some 2 dollar crack hoe around him and waking up with his money gone. Man I was a dude not to mess with back then. I was still more rapper than beat maker. I made beats and wrote raps every day. Recorded everyday. Everyday I said "man I know I'm going to make it because nobody can fuuck with me".....and seriously...nobody could fuuck with me on the mic and beat because I developed a style. Hip hop is like Wu Tang got dammit.....I studied from Rakim, Kool G Rap, Ice Cube, Scarface....I formed myself into this super MONSTER. True story. I wanted all of that in one. The multi rhyme skill of Kool G, the deep rhymes of Rakim, the story telling of Scarface, and saying that shit like I mean it like Ice Cube. People couldn't help but respect me because even when I went to deep over their head, I still sounded like something.
My bad...I have flashbacks. I tell you my true story to tell you that you are going to get old one day, don't put all of your time in the creation of music if your mind is set on one day making money from it. Because YOU WILL GET STUCK DOING IT EVERYDAY as life goes on. Then you burn yourself out..then you don't care no more...then you wasted your time...could've went to school and became something. If you going to do it..GO ALL OUT WITH IT. You have the knowledge at your finger tips today...shit you can make a video that the world can see. You got all kinds of shit today...go for it.....GETCHA ASS OUT OF THE STUDIO.