I get my inspiration once a year, where music is a form of escape for me, and I play the piano for 5 hours straight one day and put what I memorized onto the DAW. At that moment I find something I can compose into an actual song. Does that count as an inspiration? Because of how I have to be to be able to compose a song, most of my songs end up being depressing.
Maybe I need a new inspiration, lol.