I thought like you for a while but now that's changed. There's no other producers in my town so i can't co-produce with anyone in person. There's some rappers but only a few are good. Of them few i contacted only 1 got back to me. After a month or so of emailing back and forth since he took a while we finally met up. He basically said he didn't like most of my beats he'd heard even though he couldn't remember anything and that he wanted me to custom make him some beats that aren't my style and work with over the internet for free. Even though he's the one that can gain from this properly he hasn't got back to me at all since then.
I realized that most people doing Hip-Hop are jokers that don't take music as serious as some of us do and that even if you find someone that's serious you'll be very lucky to be able to work with them and make money from music. It's very rare that you'll make enough money alone off of working directly with artists to live off of it.
So now i'm trying to join an Accounting course at college so i can actually make a nice life for myself. Have something that's only a certain amount of time everyday, that's secure, the people are reliable and it pays very well. I'd rather do that than spend all my time busting my balls tryna make a living off of doing music, not accomplishing anything with my life and feeling depressed all the time because i'm a loser with no social life. And i'd have to live off of government benefits struggling to even live off of that much.
I decided i'm gonna try to be an accountant and i'm gonna make music part time when i want rather than feeling pressured and trying to do it 24/7. and if the opportunity presents itself then maybe i can work with people directly and actually make a little part time career out of it.
I was more sure that i wanted to do music with my life than i was about anything i've ever been but i suppose after a while of things not working out you've got to be realistic and choose something more secure and worthwhile before it's too late.
Even if you do college properly you can still make music in your free time and email people and try to get the music thing going. There's only so many hours you can properly do music everyday anyway.
I mean you'd be lucky to make even $5,000 a year and that's not enough to even live off let alone put money into your music career.
If you in somewhere like LA or New York or were in a city where there's indie artists to work with then things are different. But in the middle of nowhere you shoudln't count on it.
Please, please, please don't screw your life up. thing long and hard about ALL your options. If you have a nice job you can buy some nice gear and enjoy making music. Then slowly build up and if you get big enough switch to music full time.
I'd hate to think of you being 35, completely broke, living with your parents, feeling like a loser and still not having accomplished any more than you have right now.
You can't always have what you want. Sometimes things don't work out the way we thing they should.
Play the hand you've been dealt. Don't blindly gamble your life away on a dream.
EDIT : I forgot to mention online leasing. If you're beats are good enough then you can make enough money off leasing beats online to live off of music. Go into my post history and read what i've wrote a few times about this. You'll find some really helpful advice if you seriously want to make money off of it.
With a few hours of clever promotional techniques every day it shouldn't be too hard.
Online leasing is your best bet to make a living off of music if there's no artists where you live. Soon enough you'll make enough money, have enough experience and be good enough to travel a little bit, work with indie artists and go to big cities to network with majors. That's the route you wanna go.
BTW i haven't actually listened to your music so i won't comment on that. I think you've got to judge yourself on how good you are and whether you're ready or not for a career in music.
Hope i helped.