JARAMILLO said:
What hip hop do you like in curiousity? me and a few other people on this forum like the hip hop that doesnt need to say things about taking advantage of women like their animals and telling the world how much you have and earn, taking drugs and shooting and killing people when you can resolve those situations thats the hip hop i rebel against enyway. The rappers i was talking about speak proper english and actually had a fairly good education i was properly talking about the rappers that are in the 10% catagory, and the whole alcahol thing isnt really eny of my bussiness to interfer with its your life its up to you, i take back calling you stupid you sound like you know what ure saying which is good.
This is something I wrote a while back. Hopefully this will explain to you where I stand, and also put your foot in your mouth about what type of person I am.
"This is me venting on some real sh**, not directed at anyone I work with, all of y'all are my brothers(I'm trying to use the word "niggaz" by true definition only from now on).
I've been dealing with this industry sh** for a second. I'm getting tired of sorry ass rap muthaf**kas in general. I deal with at least 3 different major artists on a daily basis, whether they're looking for beats, need promotion or DVD placement, or just don't have sh** better to do than talk a hole in my fu**ing head.
A few major artists have even gone as far as to blackball me in certain areas of the entertainment world because of company i keep and people I produce for. Nobody respects me, because I'm an up and coming producer and i have yet to produce a platinum album. Oh, they'll bug the f**k outta me when they're broke and don't got a production budget, but "I'm expendable". I'm not that deep in the game, it's nothing to cross me and treat me like sh**.
Real talk, most of these fake ass muthaf**kas hop on TV, act like they doing all this big ****, they're nobodies, not to sound @$$holish, but I'm running laps around alot of these muthaf**kas who acting like they somebody. 5 years from now they'll be forgotten, i'll still be here, producing "album fillers". go ahead and blow your budget on all these big name producers, right now damn near everything on the radio sucks, record sales project this. None of these industry dudes is making any real money, nobody buys music anymore, I'll be damned if I pay $15 for a garbage ass CD with a single on it I "kinda like".
I would say f**k this industry sh**, I'm already too deep in, got niggaz countin on me. Family leaving behind bulls**t cause i'm making a better way for them. I really hate this sh** tho, it's like high school, just cause you go to the school doesn't mean you sittin at the popular table. I never was the type to pretend and fake for anyone. I drive a 2004 Hyundai Sonata, woodgrain, sunroof, leather interior black on black, power everything fully equipped. Your favorite rapper drives some flyer **** that they can't afford. I wear white gold and zirconias, only real diamonds I got is in my ear and that's a cloudy flawed rock. Your average rapper wears the same sh** lies and says "it's platinum".
Niggas gamble everytime they come out, right now rappers are doing crackhead numbers. I make more off selling beats to normal average dudes with a dream to make it than some of these rappers can afford to pay me. So basically I'm selling people dreams. Damn. When I was a kid I watched videos and said 'this is what I want to do"! NEWSFLASH!!!
There's nothing that this music sh** can get you if you can't get it on your own. If you can't pull a b**ch on your own, music won't help. You can't get doe on ya own, music won't help. If you're a failure in life, you'll be a failure after signing a deal. this ain't no escape route, Niggaz flip royalty checks into dope money, niggaz go broke after being on TV, It's time we stop lying to fans pretending it's all bling and b**ches. I'm tired of kids asking me to help them "get on". WHAT THE F**K?!
I do a track for Yukmouth, Chyna Whyte, Numskull, Brix, got stuff in the works w/Blackchild, sending off tracks to Maino, Smilez and Southstar? That's what "ON" is? "ON" is getting your dumb @$$ up going to school and getting an education so you can get somewhere in life where you're not waiting on someone else for every move you make. "ON'' is these white boys who went to school for marketing that don't know sh** about singing, rapping, making a beat, don't even listen to rap, but sit in a record label office the size of my house(and I got a 3 bedroom 1600sqr ft) and have the final say so on everything in my music project.
We gotta stop playing ourselves for less. Then we rap this "f**k school" ****, I dropped out, I'd hate to see my son do the same. I sold drugs, shot at nigas, been shot at, I'd hate to see my son do the same. I wanna see my son be something progressive in society. F**k this whole ignorant @$$ culture, f**k calling girls *******, f**k respect from money you pretending you got, f**k advocating the death of our own people thru violence and drugs, I don't even tell my grandma what i do. I tell her I'm an "audio engineer", so that shows how proud I am of my job.
As a person, hell yeah I'll shoot a niga, hell yeah I'll smoke a blunt, drink a beer and beat a b**ch half to death in a drunken rage, but that doesn't mean I should be influencing a kid with their whole life ahead of them to follow my path. I've come to the conclusion all the doors opening for me right now are happening for a reason. I'm blessed, but with great power comes great responsibility, maybe I'm here to do more than sit at the popular table with the jocks and cheerleaders. I'm starting to think i may be meant to chuck the first spoonful of mashed potatoes in a big @$$ food fight.
I wasted my life chasing this sh**, as much as I hate to say it, I made it. But God Damn!!! There has to be more than this, what the f**k are we doing?! Really?
- deRaNged 4 Phuk'dup Ent."