here´s most of his mail copied (I left out the piece about the butplug
):
"Please tell to the guys there, I received a punishment on my job for logging so much to F.P. I had about 3.000 avatars and smilies on my computer,
and they erase'em almost all. I was suspended % days on the Bank, obligatory vacations for "wrong usage of Bank's resources" , and when I came back, they changed my computer.... "
2nd mail :
"It's a ****, I don't have any computer on Monteverde, just the synths. but I have been more focused than ever on my music. It's an obssession that it's deterioring my physical aspect, I'm thin, with big black bags under my eyes, I'm becoming a very alone person, I think is a part of the process, where you must know who really you are, and whant do you want in your life. I just want to make music.
My music is unique Hades, I put heart and soul on it, I will die for it, is my most precious treasure. It has no categorie or genre. I don't respect anything, it transits throught the industrial, funk, trance, latin style, progressive and epic, sometimes suddenly changes to new forms, complex string and harmonies constructions, long organic arppeggios constructions recorded on realtime on 32 tracks playing at the same time, funky wah guitars, blasting riffs of drums, full of congas, analogic snares, elastic sounds, bongoes, native drums, african sounds, analogic basslines. Voices recorded from the radio, tv, environment, my house backyard, my friends voices, lots of crickets, monkey howls and birds of all kind, wind, water, classic music.
...
And if you can, post a treat on "About Future Producers" telling them that I'm okey but totally pissed off with my job, thinking on quit because I can't log on Future Producers, I was almost fired, , wandering how much posts jtraxx have, and put some smilies crying.... "
I told him that no matter how great FP is, it´s not worth losing your job (and paycheck) for.
so for balma :